Blank Day

no sit today.

woke up late, studied a lot, felt disconnected from my boy, nature, my passions. each time i saw the clock, felt that the day was flying by. like a missed-day. need to start making something every day, i think; knitting, sewing, creating something, to see at the end of the day that i accomplished something.

realtor says our house is not as valuable as the farmhouse we saw, so we will be staying here for a while longer.

garden is growing, plums are playing at making their first puddles of shade on the grass. planted two long rows of bachelor's button seeds, and a couple of zucchini and summer squash.

feel drained. have not been giving time to myself for some weeks now. spend most of my time studying, caring for the boy, or keeping on top of the house, garden, and communicating with my family. need to stretch, pray, meditate, take a bath, anything just to feed myself.