Milky Way

back from my brief unintentional hiatus.

have decided to take a few things off my plate, in order to free myself up to be more present in the moments of my life. to that end, i will only be writing on this blog once a week or so for a little while, at least until i get past the sense of responsibility to write daily. may return to writing here daily, or may not, will depend upon what it takes for me to slow down in my life.

looked up at the stars tonight, so many and so bright after weeks of cloudy evenings. saw the milky way with cignus flying through it for the first time in months, not having given the night sky much time for a while. thought of how looking at the milky way is looking out towards the edge of our galaxy, through the densest portion of it. remembered how, in the past, the milky way reminded me how awesomely huge the world is, how alone and insignificant we are, compared to the rest of the universe.

tonight, though, something held me back from feeling these things. though i thought of them, they failed to raise me up into the skies, into the dark expanse of space, away from all of my petty worries and plans, as has always happened in the past. i remained steadfastly my self standing on my porch on this night in this place. it was as though there were a string pulled too taught to let me fly off into the depths of wonder and imagining, too taught to let me rise above where i was.